Sitting here in my room, looking at the blank, bright orange walls that the 19 year old version of myself picked out, it feels a little like the last days of school (which, in a way, I guess it is). I accepted a job on a cruise ship two and a half weeks before it disembarks, I'm giving myself a week and a day to visit family that I won't be seeing for the next 6 months, meaning that packing up the house that I've lived in for nearly 6 years has to be a fast and furious job- which is probably best for someone as sentimental as I am.
I am a sentimental fool. To the extreme - anyone who knows me will tell you that. So I can't really help but to get just a little bit nostalgic about leaving this home, although I am so ready and beyond excited to do it.
But this house is special, it probably changed my life, in fact.
In 2004 I was an 18 year old dragged kicking and screaming in to the next phase of my life. Flagstaff is a mere 100 miles from my hometown of Prescott, Arizona and not very different in size. I didn't have to get used to 'big city' life, I didn't have to get used to a new climate, or even meet all new people (several of my friends already lived in Flagstaff), but I was still clinging to my old life- it had been such a great life, after all. I spent the last half of 2004 and the first half of 2005 miserable in a dorm room and speeding down to Prescott every Friday after my last class ended. I was a homesick mess.
My parents, savvy investors that they are, decided to buy a house in Flagstaff. Their plan was that I would live in the house with roommates and pay them rent. Great plan. The problem? I was desperate to move back home, quit college, go back to my old life (impossible right? once childhood is over it's over- try telling 18 year old Sarah that), and my old home.
My parents swear that they didn't do it to pressure me into staying, but having them spend the money and the time on the house was just enough pressure to get me to stay in Flagstaff, and stay in school. Of course once I finally let myself get into the swing of things I fell into a new life that was just as wonderful as my life at home - but I've always felt greatful to the house for holding me here long enough to let me figure that out. The whole course of my life could have been different without it.
I have had six different roommates come and go in the time that I've lived here. This house has seen me through the changing of so many seasons - I'll always be able to see it covered in the first snow of the year, or with baby green leaves on the tree in the backyard, covered in the yellow and orange of fall, or standing moodily and dark in the middle of an Arizona monsoon. This house has been the site of two surprise birthday parties, several Cinco de Mayo (or Cinco de Drinko to my silly friends) parties, Christmases, Thanksgivings, Halloweens (even though we never got any Trick-or-Treaters) and then finally, Graduation parties. This house has seen me through 3 boyfriends and 3 break-ups, countless heartaches and happinesses. I hardly recognize the newly turned 20 year-old I was when I moved in.
But I love this house and I'll miss it very, very much. It's the home my parents made for me when they knew theirs just wasn't an option anymore. Everyone has to grow up and move on - this was once the place I had to move on to and has now become a place I have to move on from.
Well, House - it's been great!